There’s distance between us
and you’re on my mind.
As I lay here in the darkness
I can find no peace inside.

I wish you were here, holding me tight
If I had you near, it would be alright.
I wish you were here
’cause I feel like a child tonight.

There’s rain on my window
and I can count the drops
But I can’t help feeling lonely
There’s no way I can stop

I wish you were here, holding me tight
If I had you near, it’ll make it alright.
I wish you were here
’cause I feel like a child tonight.

Each moment is a memory
Time is so unkind
Every hour filled with emptiness I can’t hide.

There’s distance between us
And you’re on my mind
As I lay here in the darkness
I can find no peace inside

I wish you were here, holding me tight
If I had you near, it would make it alright
I wish you were here
’cause I feel like a child tonight.

“Wish You Were Here”
by Fleetwood Mac

In a darkened room
Beyond the reach of God’s faith
Lies the wounded, the shattered remains of love betrayed
And the innocence of a child is bought
and sold
In the name of the damned
The rage of the angels left silent
and cold.

Forgive me please for I know not
What I do
How can I keep inside the hurt
I know is true.

Tell me when the kiss of love
becomes a lie
That bears the scars of sin too deep
To hide behind this fear of running
unto you
Please let there be light
In this darkened room.

All the precious time have been put
To rest again
And the smile of the dawn
Brings tainted lust singing my requiem
Can I face the day when I’m tortured
In my trust
And watch it crystalize
While my salvation crumbles to dust.

Why can’t I steer this ship before
it hits the storm?
I’ve fallen into the sea but still
I swim for shore.

Tell me the kiss of love
becomes a lie
That bears the scars of sin too deep
To hide behind this fear of running
unto you
Please let there be light
In a darkened room.

“In a Darkened Room”
by
Skid Row
 

It’s been really tiring the past two weeks, all thanks to Chinese New Year. Seems like it’s the only time Sarah and I spend time really cleaning the house. It’s really tiring when for two weekends in a row, we were working our butts off but all good now, my pile of laundry on the guest room bed is cleared, windows cleaned, storeroom cleared. And we even got ourselves new curtains and bedsheets, even a brand new high-power hairdryer! (Gotta love the cool air function!)

Anyway, it’s eve tonight and traditionally I’ll stay up as late as I can, as part of the belief that the longer you stay up, the longer your parents will live. Well, since I have my mum AND my birth parents, I think I won’t be sleeping tonight. I’m sitting in my study, wondering WTF happened to Flickr, and also playing my bass to my favorite playlist on iTunes. It’s all the songs I grew up listening to. From Jackson Browne to Heart to Queen to Wham!, this playlist has all the songs that bring back the fondest memories.

Music has this magical way of bringing back flashbacks of moments you thought were gone forever. I remember when I was younger, lying in my room and to these tunes, I wondered if someone somewhere out there was lying in her bed listening to these songs too.

One particular song is a favorite of mine….

Songbird by Fleetwood Mac

For you, there’ll be no more crying,
For you, the sun will be shining,
And I feel that when Im with you,
Its alright, I know its right

To you, I’ll give the world
To you, I’ll never be cold
cause I feel that when I’m with you,
Its alright, I know its right.

And the songbirds are singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before.

And I wish you all the love in the world,
But most of all, I wish it from myself.

And the songbirds keep singing,
Like they know the score,
And I love you, I love you, I love you,
Like never before, like never before.

But now, these songs mean nothing more than just those recurring moments of me staring at a blank ceiling like a blank slate, in a dark room waiting for sleep. Waiting to be found. This playlist is called “You”. Dedicated to you, whom I’ve never met in those years I lay quietly in bed.

I wish I met you then.